Why does the truth suck so bad sometimes....
Ok....I have done it.... Dan and I bought it....another level to my accountability started last night...the SCALE! I have not been on one in almost a year. I am afraid of what I'd have to face....a number. As long as you don't look at it it's not real...right???? As soon as you look at it....put it down on paper...It's real. All this scale can do is give me a starting place...a score, rate, callibration, a guide, a launching pad!
Then when we get home the question is.....what do you wear to weigh in? I say naked.... Dan says fully clothed.... I decide on a nightgown.
OK- it's time to face the music. I have been playing to the beat of my own drummer in my head too long! I have to look at what I have done. "FACE IT!", says Julian (of biggest loser fame) in my head. Face IT! I do....are you sure you are ready. Yep!
It's not as bad as I feared....but, still bigger than I have ever been. If it would have been more I would hae cried. I anticipated it and I am ready to never see this number again!
380.8 lbs.....the truth.
Well.. Making the decision to GET the number was the hardest part. I am seeing something new in you... its a calm determination.... the level head of a woman ready to travel the road. You are well armed, with knowledge with support and with faith. As your newest "follower".. I look forward to being with you through your journey.
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