A journey of a thousand miles begins with one step....or that's what I have been told and have been telling myself now for 40+ years. My name is Miki. I am an artist. I am fat. I am starting this blog as a way to journal...my process in getting healthy and to get there I have to put it out there for the world to see...not like they don't already know my secret....it's written all over me...and that you can't miss. I am a big girl that just keeps getting bigger and it's time to face the facts. I love food...they way it smells, feels, tastes...I love to cook it and look at it. I am addicted. There I said it, I have an addiction to food. It is my comfort. Not that I don't have other comforts also, but food is at the top of my list.
This whole cheesecake was sliced when myself and my husband Dan getting new phones.... He loves to take goofy pictures of me...and yesterday he took a short movie....I was a gast at what I saw....man it's bad. Why, When and how does it it get that bad, soooo bad? I just want to be a healthy person again...with a little energy and in sizes that I can go to even the big girl store and purchase off the rack. I knew when I couldn't go to Lane Bryant and buy clothes that things were getting bad. I am going to post pictures on this blog to let you all into my world if you dare.
Miki, you are describing me as well. I have thought for years the I have a food addiction. I eat for many reasons besides hunger. It started when I was a child following my parents divorce. Food was my friend, or so I thought. I am trying to turn to the God of all comfort instead of the comfort food, but it is a battle everyday. And I slip into the old patterns so easily. I know God can give us both victory.
ReplyDeleteLadies, I am here with you. This summer has been, "Oh, that tastes like home," with mac n cheese. Or, my sister sent 3 lbs of chocolate for me, and it wouldn't be thoughtful or kind to waste any of it. Argh. Lonely? Eat something. Bored? Eat something. Happy? Celebrate w/a food treat. I don't know how to let Him be my everything where food is concerned. I thought that "Lord feed me with the food that is necessary for me (somewhere in Prov. 29 or 30) would be a good verse, but it didn't happen for me. I'm glad I can do this journey with you. Love you Miki.
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