Did I say that? Who made me think that way? Who "planted"
these ideas into my head? Why does it seem to replay in my life? Can I change
my internal monologue? What makes me live out what I "know" to be
true? Where does it come from? Why do I feel the way I do about myself? Is it
just my perception of reality?
Just this week I have fallen victim to that voice… those negative
thoughts that preoccupy my mind instead of focusing on the positive… but there
is hope for you and I.
Have you ever asked yourself any of these questions? If you
have... CONGRATULATIONS!!!! You are on
your way to making changes and decisions toward your future, where YOU want and
need to be.... What does God really have planned for your life? Does it feel
like you’re just "living" and not really going anywhere? I have been
caught in that rut many times and I can tell you... to ask yourself those kinds
of questions. Make yourself a journal or notebook. Sometimes the journey is not
in you answering the questions; it's in you just asking the questions. Putting
them out there on paper. Makes them real. Makes them have value. Makes them
mean something.
Our inner monologue is like our soul talking to us.... some
of us hear the voice of a trusted loved one from our past. Some of us hear the
voice of that bully from 4th grade that made up a song about us. It's amazing to me how we can hear the
positive voice and then so quickly that little terrorist in our head takes
over. Telling us what our value is.... why don't we listen to that first voice?
I know so many times I let the negative voice reign in my mind and I don't
fight the fight.... It is truly the Battlefield of our Mind! It says in 2
Corinthians 10:5 We are told to
"take every thought captive" that does not conform to Christ's
standards. Wow, every thought? That's a
whole lot of stinking thinking!
Our self-worth or value comes from many places. Some of it I
believe comes from deep within…most comes from what is put in to our beings
even as small children. Or what others put in to our minds about who we are,
what we can and can't do, what we might make of ourselves....someday.
How does someone
overcome what has been ingrained into them as a child? David Pelzer is a prime
example…. If you have not read the book- "A child called IT", you
must read it. I could not believe my eyes as I read the stories that he has
from his childhood of abuse and torture. How he has found it within to go out
and talk to others about his experience is a "God thing" because no
one who has gone through abuse arrives out of it unscathed…. It is a mean life
changing destructive force that is beyond that persons control….especially if
they were a child when it happened. How parents, grandparents, Aunts, Uncles,
trusted teachers and or Pastors could go past that line---- is unfathomable to
me…. But, I see it and know that it happens every minute of every day in this
busy non-authoritative world that we live in….. It happens. We allow it...it
sickens me.
We need to be uplifting and complementary of others around
us. Even that lady in the hall that seems to have permanently implanted scowl
on her face. Just by saying she has a pretty color on today...could make her
soften up. We don't know what their inner voice is saying. Let's add to their positive
voice and to our own.... Spread a little love and ask yourself a question or
two...it might be life changing!
Blessings-
Miki
