Yesterday, I took my mother to get her pshyc exam done at her new Dr.'s office. It is at a weight loss institute here in St. Louis. I was totally creeped out. Mom is at a point that she can no longer walk because of her weight and a really bad hip that needs to be replaced. She cannot have it replaced until she looses weight. She needs hernia surgery, her bladder lifted, rotator cuff repaired and her hip replaced. All cannot be done until she looses weight. So, she is on her path to get a lap band. Okay- on to the creepy part- I wheel her in and everyone that comes in office is like a walking talking billboard for lap band or gastric bypass surgery. They would sign in and immediately focus on me...as I am the largest person in the waiting room and start telling me the joys of life after they had IT done. Of course, I ask about their complications and nodding I oblige a smile and a wink* at what they have been through. I am there- now- in the midst of the glory of their GREAT weight loss. It was a cult like atmosphere.... all happy and cheerleadery---- "Do this- Have the Surgery! You can do it too! Gooooo You!" The only thing is most of them did not look healthy.... they did not look like their bodies should.... eyes sunken, skin hanging, sickly..... scary like big eyed dolls!
This could be my fate....sooner than I would like to think!
or....
Today are the local auditions for my favorite show of all time- Biggest Loser! I watch the show faithfully every season dreaming that I could be a part of it all. Each season, I fall in love with the heart of each one of the people on the show. I love that every time it's on, I see people I know who have all the same struggles I do.... emotional, comfort, stress, obsessive, food loving people...make a change to win the battle in their life and make themselves HEALTHY physically, improve mentally and gain the knowledge and commitment that they need with motivation and trainers - to kick them in the seat of the pants! They turn couch potatoes to marathon runners in just a few short months....it is truly amazing to watch... I love it. The problem is I get motivated when the show is on and then slowly go back to my old habits giving in again when the show is not on weekly.
I have got to get healthy, as I see my parents health slip, day after day. Mom making the changes- no matter how drastic. Dad- everyday on dialysis at home. Myself- every time I go to the doctor he adds, yet another pill to take.....
Going to the audition today- I am nervous and excited! I can't even imagine what could happen. Could I be a motivator to hundreds of others at home? God, created me for a purpose.... this could be......something grand!
